Kudat ...oh Kudat....

I arrived in Kudat for my semester break since July3rd.... since i rili loves to read then i decided dat my holidays will all about the books and library...and perhaps to update my blog.

But the internet connection in my place is quite bad....I mean WORSE....in fact my DIGI broadband can't be reached. The CC internet connection also the same....I can't even update my blog...

Since Kudat just a small town in Sabah....so I feel there is no suitable place for me to hang-out with Rani beside the library. So I became a library member in Kudat since my library card in KK cannot being used here as the kudat library still using the manual system....

The books quite ok....( as the library have a quite a numbers of Mills and Boon colections....hehehe).
Rani will go to his section and I will be in my section of books. Although the duration to borrow the books is 2 weeks....I will stay in the library for twice a week. But some things that I dun like about the library is the air-con are not functioning.. no wireless connection....hurmmmmmm...tooooooo bad....

zzzzZZZ...tired....

Ramadan is here....

Alhamdulilah....another Ramadan in my life, of coz like any one else I rili hope dat dis  Ramadan will bring. For the first time in many years, I will celebrating my Ramadan dis year in Kudat.

Since I live in Kampung area....so it will be a lot easier for me to perform my solat Tarawih.....the Mosque very close to my house.

Wish all Moslem's Happy fasting 

:)

Every Day @ 8pm

fuhh....I dun know since when but I rili crazy to sit in-front of da tv 8pm every single day.
And guess wat, I tried to watch other station prime time news but I already fall for BULETIN UTAMA TV3.

I rili enjoy da way they presenting da news every nite....Until it's hard for me to enjoy other news from other stations.....

Love Buletin Utama....ngeeeee

*_*

I Don't Really Buy Such Excused!!

I have come to a stage to realize human do make mistake,but ur mistake was TOOOOOOOOOOO much for me to "digest". You dx have to fool me around, coz I'm one step ahead from u. Let me tell u dis....u just got da wrong butt to mess with.

I already told u to come clean, yet u choose to stand there like u are da victim. Let me be clear here, I still can smile ,no harm for me. But PLEASE bare in ur mind, u already set a BAD impression on my sexy cute memory. Once u  pickled with me for the entire of my life u such a !@#$%^*&^%$ for me...

Sori but no sori coz u made me to respond dis way. Again in the future times, please think DEEPLY b4 u decide to express urself. Coz if u can crossed da line...so do I.  You scratch my back and I'll scratch yours...as simple as that people ......As simple as that.

Lastly I would like to thank u, coz letting me see ur true colorssssssss......

*Smile people...don't be TOO serious...

Oh.....It Just a Misunderstanding bah

My fren posted dis oh her wall:
her 1st posted: Lain kali kalau tidak mampu untuk ambil dua subjek tu,jangan ambil




Then there was a misunderstanding happened...in fact my feeling also benig hurt as I hought she was addressed it to my friend and I who took our short sem. course.I'm da person who will faced da situation and I in fact did sms my fren who 1st posted it on her wall and asked her who she rili address her posted to?? There had been many versions of stories I heard but as a matured person I willing and eager to listen to her side of story. Then she replied me and even explained that her posted had nothing to do with my fren and I who also took short sem courses. Well after that I came into a conclusion that it was just a misunderstanding. 


Then she posted


Her 2nd posted: People jump to conclusions without even asking. I would like to apologize to all my friends whose their feelings might be hurt by my previous post.But please do consider that I also have friends from other university, whose university also have short semester.Again,sorry.
p/s:I should have considered narrowing down my post next time instead of leaving it too general which might led to misunderstanding.






Well the lesson of my post today..is that we need to look for way to settle any thing in this life. 




This was the comment for her 2nd posted:  


*Diane 

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  • •  Wana retorik semata2..humphhh..
      

      18 hours ago ·  ·  1 person
    • Dgku iya2...makasih la wana..mmg mbantu..huhu..

      18 hours ago ·  ·  2 people
    • Diane (Me) lets learn from this lesson so that next time we will not straight away jumped into bad conclusion....and yes its worth to ask

      18 hours ago · 
    • Dgku that's true diane..thanks anyway for man up enough to ask me..if not..I wouldnt know..=)

      18 hours ago · 
    • Diane  hahaha...I even planned to remove u frm FB la ...nak serang rumah u la...sedih tau I baca ur posted ..tempias berabis nii....hahahhaha (but thats b4 I hv da courage to sms u later dis evening)...I yakin diri ja asked u about it.

      17 hours ago ·  ·  2 people
    • Dgku haha..good thing u asked first b4 deciding to remove one of ur fren..huhu

      17 hours ago · 
    • Sofia Zulkifli hehehe. kelakar. macam tu sekali.

      16 hours ago · 
    • Ajiji  omg...

      16 hours ago · 
    • Rafidatul Rosli pewit

      7 hours ago · 
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1 in a Million

I was mising my fren, there4 i was searching her phone number in my phone contacts.... Then I just sms her and dis was wat I sent to her.... Salam why u jarang on9 nowadays??sibuk jd big boss ke...hihi...

Then she text me back : sori blh sy tau sapa ni??

I replied: I la gadis paling kiut dlm idup u...hahaha...wei Mardiana bh ni....

Then she called me and da conversation goes like dis:

That Person: Assalamualaikum...Mardiana ka ni?

I said: iya...napa kau lupa aku ka?? sedihnya aku Jaz..??

That Person: Mana ada lupa...lama nya kami cari kau ni...kenapa kau begitu?

I said: sibuk bh...(but, I kind of curious with her voice as if she not like my fren)

That Person: jd bila kau mau pulang sandakan ni??

I said: knapa nak pulang sandakan?eh...u ni c Jasneaty kn???

That person: Enda , c Salbiah bh aku ni....

I said: ahhh???siapa kau ni???tapi ni number kws saya nama Jas....kau kakak dia ka??

That Person: Ai bukan....aku ni c Salbiah....betul bh kau ni c Mardiana???

I said : Iya Mardiana Ahmad....kawan mu tu Mardiana apa??

That Person: Mardiana Abdullah....nah...salah orang sdh kita dua ni....na begitulah....

Then I checked my contacts list...again serching for Jas phone number....I forgot that I saved her name as Kak Jaz....Her previous number  has been used by other person named Salbiah also from Sandakan...

What a coincident huh....

I managed to sms my fren Jaz and told her about it....

*_*

Kudat -KK 18/04/2011

Prof Chua mentioned dis during his lectured...my last trip to Kudat it was affected da small part of da road...now half of da road.....People who responsible for dis need to do sumting about it b4 it getting even worse.  

Teman sepanjang perjalana semuanya "besar-besar" enda la juga sunyiiiiii

Arrived at Kudat : 1620

So many things were left unsaid

Sometimes it is better to leave it just like dat...so dat it's not gonna hurt so much. But for sure u will feel da burden on ur shoulders,and datz for sure rili HURT u too. Do we have choice?? or are we running out of choice???

To say it...or to keep it
To choose or to lose???
Its one way ticket people...

Sisters day out

Last Saturday (12032011) I attended my Mandarin replacement clazz...from 9am -11am.... after finished my clazz I decided to stay @ da library. But then I called my 2 other sisters Fanny n Hikma as we already planned to study 2gether. When I called they asked me to come n joined them for breakfast. I always love when Hikma prepare Mee Goreng Sedap...(hihih) n Fanny brewed a pot of tea...n I prepare mee sedap soto...hohoho..

We are joined by Cik Ribut...n Kak Nurul too... After dat around 12.30pm, Fanny,,,Hikma n I went to da library.... as usual we stayed at our favorite area...@_@..  as we rili need a big space to put our stuff then we decided to take 1 table for each of us....dis is wat we called "utilized" da facility....

At 1630..we decided to go to 1B...as there was a books fair as well as Pc fair....But the main reason was...Hikma want to treat Fanny n I to celebrate our friendship n sisterhood....and we went to Secret   Recipe 1B..

yumm..yummm

nice huh??

 

da Rings

DiUrut Orang Buta

Senyum dlm ksakitan

Sakit...but suka....apa la itu???kepaingan...

errrr...sakit juga niiii

Sometimes

I rili noticed these situations happens in our daily life (or it just me who felt dis way???hihi) .... But how far we want to admit it?? Some people might said dat dis is not true... *_^

.....Sometimes enemy can turned n became our best fren ever.
.....Sometimes we treating outsiders as our own family, and vice versa ....
.....Sometimes human rili want sumting dat rili beyond what they can gets
.....Sometimes we gained sumting but for sure need to let go of sumting

     

.....Sometimes we rili wished to turn back da time

....Sometimes we rili need to be alone

....Sometimes it is better to share it with sum1

....Sometimes we rili hate ourselves

.....But most of da time , it will never be da same like any time dat goes by.

Most of  da time we questioned dis n dat

But very  rare will get da answers for all of it...

And YESSS...sometimes     I......

Kudat...... 

  

The Last GoodBye

She can't recall when was da last time they said gudbye to 1 another, but she rili sure dat was da very last time. Not just him, she also gave her last waved to "them". Don't know what makes her so determined to do dis, but I'm sure she already gave her deep thoughts on it.

The last gudbye, she rili stand for it....the last time she will looked at his face....da last time she will heard from him....prayed dat it was da  last tears...

The last gudbye for them who had been through it for almost....what??you do da maths....
But for sure all of the past will remained as part of her life...
Will it be possible for her to move on?? Of coz, as she very focus for her life.... no more HIM...no more ON-OFF and ON again.....

I rili like her to enjoy her life now...as she is happy with her life....people around her will not notice da pain dat she carried along da way...  As she will get herself all together so dat she will not fall apart... The most important is dat da situation is under control..... ngeeee





kudat....(Dis-2010)

I'm sori classmatezz

On 21st Sep , my claz was schedule to take the claz photo session, so day before dat, I reminded all my clazmate not to M.I.A for da session...just for da event ya.... And everyone are looking forward for it, including me.


As usual every Tuesday, my claz start at 8am-10am for, then at 10am-12pm at da new academic block, where da photo session will be carry out. But some said dat da photo session at 12pm and some said 2pm. So da claz still not sure about dat. And since I forgot to bring sumting for the claz assignments dat need to be pass to them by dat very day, so I decided to rushed back home right after my at 12pm. At dat time still no confirmation on wat time da photo session for da claz will start.


I have no choice, then I reached my car and droved home to get da papers and came back again for another group discussion. It's peak hour ok and da road so packed with cars . It took me almost 1hour to drive home, and as I reached home, I decided to performed my Dhuhr pray first before I go back to my campus. Around 13.30 I'm on my way from home and I rili prayed dat I will make it.


Guess what??Amy called me and said " Everybody was waiting for me, and she asked where da hell am I?? And my heart said " What? I'm da only one who M.I.A  now???Its...me..and me??"  aiyoOOOOooo I'm so malu oooo... Seriously, I HATE TO WAIT and try my best not to make others TO WAIT FOR ME in my life....


Then after a few discussion, our session was postponed on Thursday....Amy told me dis...and make some relieved  in  my heart...but for sure there was some not many will have hard feeling about it as they already make it rite there and it was me who spoiled everything...


Here I only want to say dat I'm SO SORRY people....deep sorry from me k....


Since it examination session...Good Luck to all my fellow frenz.. *_*

That's Almost da last Meeting

(roughly 2 weeks ago.....)

Seriously speak, dis week almost put my life to an end...ALMOST ok...! This week many things need to be done...to pass on...to  present...da point is , this is da most  tiredest week 4 me...

But last nite I had my claz until 10pm with Campus Director. After da end of 6pm claz, some of my claz mate and I decided to get someting to eat coZ da nx claz will start at 7.30pm.  Since we are moving in a separate cars so some of my mate reached at da  restaurant early...where da gurlz joined Naz's car , Amy with me in my "kuda itam"....and cSell came rite after he meet with his sista...

When our foods arrived, da gurls n Naz leave and headed back to campus, so it just Amy, Sell n Me la....  Chat n eat will be good...but we have to eat as quick as possible coz it's oridy 7.40pm.

Ok, then we are headed to campus too...it seems dat everyone was about to get ready....and I saw our campus director unpacked his stuffs. It shows to Amy n I dat he just arrived there... The claz went well...but I'm not well....my eyes are so damn tired n I can't barely focus during dat session...but I rili force myself . If the Campus Director can sacrifice his nite time for us...then I'm nobody to show dat I'm so tireed like hell.

It's 10.05pm then he let us go...I will go home straight away as Nas will drive Amy home. Even in da claz I oridy sleepy now I need to drive home with dis condition.....but I have no choice. I just put d music as loud as possible so that I will not fall asleep plus it can help me to be alert. Guess what??/it only works until I reached  IndahPermai  (IP) traffic lights, then my Garfield eyes rili hard to focus...

I just try my best not  to loss my sight alertness. Well it rili what da answer might be if I fail to take action to ensure my journey home and other road users into consideration (aiseh sound rili touch, huh?).... Usually nite time driving from my campus to my home will take me around 45minutes roughly... Then I just try my very best to open my eyes as wide as possible, and drive safely. But sumwhere after da traffic light near da roundabout of Sabah trade center (STC), I failed to focus and almost lose control of my " kuda itam"

And dat's rili a WAKE-UP CALLED for me.....

moral: 90km/h + sleepy eyes rili don't match to be together....

p/s: pls take note ya people including Me .... take care n drive safely :)

Tunang tidak solat!

" Diane, U tau kn I dah tunang, budi perkertinya baik, suka membantu, serta mempunyai hubungan yg baik dgn ahli keluarga dan semua org. Tapi kan Diane he only bersembahyang Jumaat dan hari raya sahaja."... ...

That it was some part of my conversation with one of my fren, as she told me few weeks ago. Seriously speak,I kind of shocked with what I just heard from her. Her fiance is 8years older than her, and for me he should be able to know that solat such an important activity to be done daily. Now my fren one and only wish dat her fiance will changed. Da question is when will he changed??? They will be marry end of dis year and still dat guy failed to perform five times a day solat. She oridy talked about it with him and there is no serious action taken by him to change. 

Sekarang ni, kawan I ni sangat bimbang adakan tunang dia ni boleh bw peranan sbg husband yg baik kpd dia? Patut ka dia minta pertolongan org tuk nasihatkn tunag dia ni..Boleh ka diaa hidup dgn org mcm ni??? I feel sori for her as she rili love dis guy but one thing dat she rili hope n pray dat her fiance will changed. 

There is nothing I can tell her dat time beside listen to her problem. Then sumthing popped up in my head " sudah tua pun tia mo sembahyang ka lg...?" Aiyo... Ini lah manusia yg kurang peka terhadap tanggungjawab di hari kemudiaan. 

It's not to late for those yg mahu berubah, I think ni semua dr diri sendiri juga la. If ada Ulama dr Saudi Arabian pun jy dtg kasi bimbingan pun tia guna coz hati masi keras lg mo berubah n melakukan perubahan. I  think tunang kwn I ni bukan la kes luar biasa, ramai lelaki skg ni yg sgt sibuk p sembahyang Jumaat n Hari Raya but sembahyang yg fardu di abaikan, come on la kamu tu akan jadi ketua keluarga one day, and sembahyang tu amatlah dituntut. Please la berubah, ramai perempuan diluar tu yg memerlukan bakal husband yg boleh diharapkan dlm serba-serbi aspek kehidupan. Institusi kekeluargaan tu amat lemah if ketua nya lemah dlm aspek kerohanian mcm ni.

For my fren, masi sempat lg tu dia berubah, try ask org yg berpengalaman on how to deal with ur situation. It's gud to know dat u looked at dis matter as a serious one. Mimang la kawin tu hal besar dlm kehidupan seorg wanita n I sgt bangga bila u amat concerned tentang hal solat tunang U. Sempena bulan baik ni...byk kn la berdoa InsyaAllah hati tunang U tu mudah terima teguran n cepat berubah. Mudah2an semuanya will be OK..

ooohh....not AGAIN????!!

It happens right in-front me. How can She said that to him? Aiyo gurl...what happened? You've put him in da same situation like u done to him last time at da same place. I dun knw how to describe his expression dat time, he rili looked confused...aiyo kasian him... 

For her there's nothing wrong with dat. It rili cleared dat he's not used to deal with da situation...,hey correction this was his 2nd time la...so why still with his same expression as da 1st time??? erm....

What happened to him rili showed to me dat not everyone can deal with openness dat came from some1. I feel sori for him as what she had done to him was sumthing dat he's not ready to find out. I just like her style and her afford in doing dat thing she like...be honest.

Ryan White

Ryan White (December 6, 1971 – April 8, 1990), expelled from his school just because he was infected by HIV/AIDS. A contaminated blood treatment believe to be da reason where he got it from. He was given 6months to live after being diagnosed in 1984. Lack of knowledge was da main reason why AIDS was badly understood anad encouraged people to treat him totaly different as child. He still continued his studies at da same school after a doctors confirmed dat he sat no risk to his school frenzz. Yet parents and teachers gathers against White attendance. White then became da spokesman for AIDS research and also public education. 

Micheal Jackson than became a fren of him as both of them spent so much time together as Micheal really concerned about White and his health condition. Micheal also tribute White whit a song called "Gone too soon"


Gone too Soon Lyrics :

Like a comet
Blazing 'cross the evening sky
Gone too soon

Like a rainbow
Fading in the twinkling of an eye
Gone too soon

Shiny and sparkly
And splendidly bright
Here one day
Gone one night

Like the loss of sunlight
On a cloudy afternoon
Gone too soon

Like a castle
Built upon a sandy beach
Gone too soon

Like a perfect flower
That is just beyond your reach
Gone too soon

Born to amuse, to inspire, to delight
Here one day
Gone one night

Like a sunset
Dying with the rising of the moon
Gone too soon
Gone too soon

How poor is poor? Pt. 1

My recent trip to Kudat, gave me another view about life and education. I've meet this girl who live not far from my house. She came to my home and asked for any kind of house chores so dat she can earn something. I said to her dat there was nothing for her to do, as I can do it on my own. This kind of situation always put me at the serious life condition, where it can happen to anybody.

We were end-up chatted and she started to say about her health condition and why she rili need to get money. She said that her period quiet unusual, as she claimed to have it for 3 months at one time. So, I asked here with quite brilliant question, "how much money that you spent to buy your pads?"

In 2010, I was shocked with what she said that, she never buy pads, she handle it with a few pieces of fabric and you know, do it in the old style. I felt so lucky for myself, thousand times more luckier than her. She also claimed that right after she finished her SPM she just stay at home and do nothing. When I asked her about her ambitions, she said that she will be getting married with a 30 years old guy, who 10 years her senior and she had no choice as her parents said so, and she never dream to grab it. I think when you failed to dream something that's will be a serious situation where you have nothing to push you to the limits. 

I'm glad that my parents not having such mind as they rili put education on da top of everything. Her father and my father used to be grown up together when they were young, attend da same school, one thing that different is my father have the determination to success in life and rili focus. For my father education rili plays an important role in our daily life.

My father come from a very poor family. Since he's the only son so he got and extra focus from his parents. His elder sister and him got the opportunity to go to school. My aunt just completed her primary school and my father not even earn his O-Level as my grandfather cannot afford the fees of RM80. Guess whay?my father rili wanted to be a Doctor, but not it's not too bad as he is the doctor in petroleum.  

I think the main idea of this post is to equip our-self with education as that only can help us. The opportunity to be with her rili opened my eyes and mind to be more serious in life. And this post is a serious one...or maybe I should come with a post with da title "How serious is serious?" ermmmmm....will think about it.